I understand now that there were some things that I could not change as well as things I should not have attempted to change nor mess with because God has his plan for me and he is the captain of this ship, NOT ME !

I remember the first time seeing my father, or should I say the first time seeing him.  I was about 10 or 11 years old. I remember playing in my grandmother’s front yard all alone.

This car pulls up in front of the house were I was playing, it was a baby blue Cadillac that sparkled in the sun, with tinted windows and white wall tires.  WOW!  This must be someone really cool.

The window rolled down on the passenger side and there was this beautiful woman.  But it was not my mother.

And there was some dude!  He was calling me by name as if he knew me.  “Lionel!  Lionel! Come here son”.  So I walked over to the car and he mumbled some words that sounded like “I’m your daddy!”  He then reached over and handed me a wad of money and said “don’t spend it all in one place.  Tell your mom I said hello.”

I watched as the car pulled off until it was out of my site.  Now I did see him one more time after that.  I was standing at the bus stop and he pulled over and told me to get in.  He asked me where I was going.

I can’t remember a lot of what we talked about; as a matter of fact we didn’t talk.  But he did say this before he let me out.  He asked, “do you have a girlfriend?”  I was like “Yeah!”, but thinking to myself “where did that come from?”  He looked at me and said “when she messes up, get another one.”

Well, needless to say, that “dude” and I did not spend anymore time together fostering any kind of relationship, but he spent time with a lot of women. This is what I saw this is what I thought how a man should be nice car, a lot of women ,and money. 

Though I never developed any type relationship with this so called “man” (father), I have since met a man named Jesus and he has been kind enough to introduce me to his Father.  We have been friends ever since.

Do you want to know about a man?

If you want to know about a man’s character, look into his wife’s face, listen to what his son’s and daughter’s say about him, talk to his co-workers and neighbors.